The Young Adult

by Abbi Rajasekhar

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Hello Friends!
I'm so happy to finally be putting the album out!! Most of these songs were written while I was stricken with the most horrible cold/ flu of my life in January 2011. I found myself sick and unable to leave my little Chicago apartment or even my bed for about 2 weeks. About 8 days into that isolation, my mind was racing with so many thoughts- so I just started writing furiously. The poems I wrote during that time ended up being 9 out of the 11 songs on this album. The songs all share a common root, an externalized though process of what it means to be a "grown up". I found myself dwelling on conversations I had been having with my friends about how incredibly strange it is to be in our mid-20s. We all had always thought that we would have ourselves and our paths in life figured out by now... and we've found, to our own great confusion/ panic that we've never been more unsure of ourselves, what we are supposed to be doing, and how to do it. The songs I wrote in January wrestle with this. My album, The Young Adult, tries in my own simple way to explore that and hopefully, see some hope through it all. Give the songs a listen, I really hope you like them and they bring some beauty into your life:)

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released August 21, 2011

All music written and performed by: Abbi Rajasekhar
Recorded with: Josh Estock @ Great Western Record Recorders
Mixed and Mastered by: Jon Visger

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Track Name: Over and Over
he painted pictures
he had an eye to see things that weren't there
and the skills would use just can't be learned in schools
so he cut out, but we don't see him anwhere
or his pictures anywhere
she does her best to get by, part time jobs on the side
and she sings at the end of each day
and oh she adores it, but has nothing to show for it
she tells herself
she's got the job, but the job don't pay
they say
I've got to find my way over and over again
I guess there's worse things in life
then putting the things you love on the side
and that's why I guess we try our best
before we lay down and give up and die
I guess its always been this way
and I'm not trying to complain
I just want to say to all of you
who feel like you just don't know what to do
I understand that and in fact
I feel that way too
I've got to find my way over and over again
Track Name: Your Guess
I'm spinning, about to spin right off the earth
23 years old still haven't figured out how anything works
not knowing anything can sure make you feel alone, alone
How can memories change so much over time and
How can the thing that you want most be the hardest to find and
how do people prepare for the end of their lives
well your guess is as good as mine, your guess is as

Hold my hand, hold my hand and explain to me
how can a dreamer not believe in what he dreams
and how can a lover not be loved reciprocatingly and be left alone, alone
how can a bird not have the passion to fly
how can a friend become a stranger overnight
and how do people prepare for the end of their lives
well your guess is as good as mine
your guess is as good as mine
Track Name: Days Get in the Way
Keep our dreams organized, like books on shelves
we stack up the ones we love, remind ourselves
Forget forget forget the things that just don't matter
Cherish cherish cherish the ones who love you better
I know, I know , I know, I know
No I don't, no I don't, no I don't, no I don't

We let our days get in the way
its necessary
me and my friends, we try our best
even when we're weary
I've often thought if we knew the day we die
we'd live more completely
because wasted time and wasted days
Scrape by scrape by scrape by for the weekend
Survive survive survive till the years end
I know I know that's not what we're meant for
But sometimes we're just to tired to try for more

sleep late but wake up early

I can't stand the way I talk
These crooked lines were drawn in chalk
This is my voice, this is mine
Track Name: Made Me Grow
OH, I gotta figure it all out again
My dad told me from the start
a couple boys might break my heart
and my mom told me the ache with time would fade
and my dad said I was never meant
to waste away when love came and went
and my mom consoled me when I panicked along the way
and all the seeds that they have sown
and all the seeds that they have sown
yes all the seeds that they have sown
they made me grow
Well I gave my heart out a few times
but it never ended right
and I tend to recover slow and painfully
I guess its possible that I
had shined in someone else's eyes
but I ignored him watchin' someone else
while he watched me
So if I've broken any hearts
If I've broken any hearts
If I've broken any hearts
I didn't know
and love came and then love went
then love came and then love went
and when it came and when it went
it made me grow
It made me grow, made me grow
It made me grow, made me grow
Now I've been to many cities
and I've seen a lot of beauty
and I've made a lot of friends I'll never see again
but you shook me to the core
you ran through me like a sword
I'm tryin' to say I love you and need you with me 'till the end
Of all the people I have met
of all the people I have met
and all the ones that I'll forget
you were the best
you made me grow, made me grow
you made me grow, made me grow
Track Name: Closer to my Heart
Give me grace when I'm ungraceful give me grace
I need to be alone now, I just need my own space
I know I'm inconsistent, please come back right away
You said what are you looking for? what do you want?
and I said nothing and everything
You said maybe I should go and then maybe you'll miss me
and I said nothing and everything
you watch me walk away now
but you got a little closer to my heart
you watch me walk away now
but you got a little closer to my heart
oh, I want you closer than I'll let you come
oh, I want you closer than I'll let you come
You fill my mind like you fill my apartment when you stop by
like you fill up my kitchen, like you take up the couch, you take up all the space, but I like you in my place
I don't know how to say that I want you to stay, I want you to stay
I just don't know what to say, I've always been that way
you watch me walk away now
but you got a little closer to my heart
you watch me walk away now
but you got a little closer to my hear
oh, I want you closer thanI'll let you come
oh I want you closer than I'll let you com
Track Name: Ashes Ashes
what am i supposed to learn, about how to be grown
what was i supposed to see
I was supposed to learn a long time ago
what a woman's supposed to look like, and what a man's supposed to be
ashes ashes we all fall down
like little children spread out across the ground
ashes ashes we all fall down
like little children spread out across the ground
work your hands to the bone, go to bed late and night
go to bed tired for reasons that are right
wake up in the morning, make the most of today
because tomorrow,
oh, tomorrow's a fickle lover who always keeps you guessing
ashes ashes we all fall down
like little children spread out across the ground
ashes ashes we all fall down
like little children spread out across the ground
I said it once
said it a thousand times
you'll be just fine
you'll be just fine
Track Name: We Got A Lot
to each his own, so that each can be lonely
not understanding, doesn't mean misunderstanding
you're most beautiful when the sounds you make mean nothing at all
we sink we float, we sink we float, we float
we got a lot in common, we are so different
we got a lot in common, we are so different
Let's get it right, at least one time in this life
Let's have it all, let all the love we've ever known
echo in our metal hearts
in our chests made of stone
beneath our wooden skin
under sand paper clothes
we got a lot in common, we are so different
we got a lot in common, we are so different
Track Name: Its Easy
Its hard to be grown up when you're young
Its hard to know when things end and when they've begun
its easy to make the same mistakes again and again
its easy to pretend things are like they were back then
I got a long list in my head
of things I wish I could forget
My soul is fine, my hearts okay
my mind is often far away
wandering the night alone
not ready yet to come back home
I guess the secrets we keep best
are the ones that we keep from ourselves
I thought I'd have it figured out by now
amazing grace how sweet the sound
but getting older didn't make me any wiser somehow
that saved a wretch like me
I needed someone to pull me out
I once was lost but now I'm found
of this spiraling of fear and doubt, pull me out
was blind but now I see, I see
I've got a long list in my head
of things I need not to forget
this battered sail can catch wind yet
hope can move this ship full of regret
my soul is fine, my hearts okay
my mind is often far away
wandering the night alone
when its dark outside, there is light at home
its hard to stand when you've fallen down
its hard to get off of the ground
its easy when out of no where someone lift's you from the mud
its easy when somebody pulls you up
Track Name: Drink Alone
in the corner there's an old young man, he sits in his regular spot/ he's been coming to this bar for the last 2 years, he's been coming whether he wants to or not/ he stumbles on over night after night fro his dark apartment down the street/ and he drinks 'till he'll laugh about anything, and he drinks 'till he can't keep his feet/ he says "my mama always told me I'd grow up to be special, but I guess I grew up to get old/ and life's not at all what I had expected and I'm going it all alone/ where have all my good years went? I drank 'em all away/ now my body's to tired to try anymore 'cause my body feels twice my age/ but this whiskey feels nice, the next one'll feel better/ tomorrow will be the same as today/ but tonight, it'll keep all the demons at bay// To his left there's a man who is wearing a tie and he's never been here before/ he's got his head in his hands and his phone is turned off and his jacket and briefcase on the floor/ he says, "I don't really like the taste of alcohol but please give me something good and strong/ all of my life I've tried to do everything right but somehow its all gone so wrong/ money isn't everything, well, that's what they say, but it sure means a hell of a lot/ we were barely hanging on to our house and our car and now I just lost my job/ and I don't see a way to dig us out of this hole and the weight on my shoulders is crushing my soul/ how has this become my life? and how do I go home and face my wife?/ I think I'll need a lot to drink tonight// oooooooooooooooo// Near the end there's a man holding something in the light/ its a picture of a woman, she's got breathtaking eyes/ the picture's been folded the edges are torn, but it seems she's never seen so much beauty before/ so he folds her up gently and puts her back in its wallet, then he kisses the leather and puts it in his back pocket/ he says, "I just need one more small drink to be brave, all this waiting is more than my broke heart can take/ my baby she left me and I've been wasting away, but I can't say I blame her 'cause I ain't no saint/ but I love her more than anything else in this world, and I gotta go win back my beautiful girl/ how the hell did I loose her now when i had her in my arms?/ and I gotta find the right thing to say somehow 'cause she won't fall for any of my charms/ she said she'd meet me tonight at a quarter past 8/ this is my chance, so just one more drink of else I might be late// ooooooooooooooooo// and they all drink alone, and we all hope they can make it home
Track Name: The Key
sometimes the path lights up in the dark we learn where we are/every once in a while we spend our time well/ we arrive at our destination and get confirmation/ that we did what we needed to do and we did it well ooooooooo, ooooooooooo
its the key that unlocks every door/ its the answer that shakes you to the core/ knowing what you're fighting for/ could anybody ask for more?
there's always voices in your ears voices in your ears but then one rings clear/ and you know what you're supposed to do and you know the truth/ O heaven knows what heaven knows but you know it too/ Heaven knows what heaven knows what
oooooooo, oooooooooo
its the key that unlocks every door/ its the answer that shakes you to the core/ knowing what you're fighting for/ could anybody ask for more? sometimes you're not supposed to let go you're supposed to grab hold/ some times you're not supposed to let go you're supposed to grab hold
Track Name: Over and Over Again
sound from my lips, it echoes back, bounces back in, needles and pins// sounds different, I disagree, with who said that, sounded like me/ O I can't explain I can't explain it all I try my best/ O one million things these things I'm supposed to have but don't possess
I will try to find the right way to go/ i'll find my way, o
step and step into the right way to from here on/ I'll find my way, o
I will try to find the right way to go/ I'll find my way, o
I will try to find the right way to go/ I'll find my way, o
congratulations, to all of you who always know, what you're supposed to do/ and where to go, who' s gut to trust/ that must be nice, I'm envious/ O I can't explain I can't explain it all I try my best
One million things these things I'm supposed to have but don't possess