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The Young Adult

by Abbi Rajasekhar

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1.
he painted pictures he had an eye to see things that weren't there and the skills would use just can't be learned in schools so he cut out, but we don't see him anwhere or his pictures anywhere she does her best to get by, part time jobs on the side and she sings at the end of each day and oh she adores it, but has nothing to show for it she tells herself she's got the job, but the job don't pay they say I've got to find my way over and over again I guess there's worse things in life then putting the things you love on the side and that's why I guess we try our best before we lay down and give up and die I guess its always been this way and I'm not trying to complain I just want to say to all of you who feel like you just don't know what to do I understand that and in fact I feel that way too I've got to find my way over and over again
2.
Your Guess 03:11
I'm spinning, about to spin right off the earth 23 years old still haven't figured out how anything works not knowing anything can sure make you feel alone, alone How can memories change so much over time and How can the thing that you want most be the hardest to find and how do people prepare for the end of their lives well your guess is as good as mine, your guess is as Hold my hand, hold my hand and explain to me how can a dreamer not believe in what he dreams and how can a lover not be loved reciprocatingly and be left alone, alone how can a bird not have the passion to fly how can a friend become a stranger overnight and how do people prepare for the end of their lives well your guess is as good as mine your guess is as good as mine
3.
Keep our dreams organized, like books on shelves we stack up the ones we love, remind ourselves Forget forget forget the things that just don't matter Cherish cherish cherish the ones who love you better I know, I know , I know, I know No I don't, no I don't, no I don't, no I don't We let our days get in the way its necessary me and my friends, we try our best even when we're weary I've often thought if we knew the day we die we'd live more completely because wasted time and wasted days Scrape by scrape by scrape by for the weekend Survive survive survive till the years end I know I know that's not what we're meant for But sometimes we're just to tired to try for more sleep late but wake up early I can't stand the way I talk These crooked lines were drawn in chalk This is my voice, this is mine
4.
Made Me Grow 04:33
OH, I gotta figure it all out again My dad told me from the start a couple boys might break my heart and my mom told me the ache with time would fade and my dad said I was never meant to waste away when love came and went and my mom consoled me when I panicked along the way and all the seeds that they have sown and all the seeds that they have sown yes all the seeds that they have sown they made me grow Well I gave my heart out a few times but it never ended right and I tend to recover slow and painfully I guess its possible that I had shined in someone else's eyes but I ignored him watchin' someone else while he watched me So if I've broken any hearts If I've broken any hearts If I've broken any hearts I didn't know and love came and then love went then love came and then love went and when it came and when it went it made me grow It made me grow, made me grow It made me grow, made me grow Now I've been to many cities and I've seen a lot of beauty and I've made a lot of friends I'll never see again but you shook me to the core you ran through me like a sword I'm tryin' to say I love you and need you with me 'till the end Of all the people I have met of all the people I have met and all the ones that I'll forget you were the best you made me grow, made me grow you made me grow, made me grow
5.
Give me grace when I'm ungraceful give me grace I need to be alone now, I just need my own space I know I'm inconsistent, please come back right away You said what are you looking for? what do you want? and I said nothing and everything You said maybe I should go and then maybe you'll miss me and I said nothing and everything you watch me walk away now but you got a little closer to my heart you watch me walk away now but you got a little closer to my heart oh, I want you closer than I'll let you come oh, I want you closer than I'll let you come You fill my mind like you fill my apartment when you stop by like you fill up my kitchen, like you take up the couch, you take up all the space, but I like you in my place I don't know how to say that I want you to stay, I want you to stay I just don't know what to say, I've always been that way you watch me walk away now but you got a little closer to my heart you watch me walk away now but you got a little closer to my hear oh, I want you closer thanI'll let you come oh I want you closer than I'll let you com
6.
Ashes Ashes 01:46
what am i supposed to learn, about how to be grown what was i supposed to see I was supposed to learn a long time ago what a woman's supposed to look like, and what a man's supposed to be ashes ashes we all fall down like little children spread out across the ground ashes ashes we all fall down like little children spread out across the ground work your hands to the bone, go to bed late and night go to bed tired for reasons that are right wake up in the morning, make the most of today because tomorrow, oh, tomorrow's a fickle lover who always keeps you guessing ashes ashes we all fall down like little children spread out across the ground ashes ashes we all fall down like little children spread out across the ground I said it once said it a thousand times you'll be just fine you'll be just fine
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We Got A Lot 04:16
to each his own, so that each can be lonely not understanding, doesn't mean misunderstanding you're most beautiful when the sounds you make mean nothing at all we sink we float, we sink we float, we float we got a lot in common, we are so different we got a lot in common, we are so different Let's get it right, at least one time in this life Let's have it all, let all the love we've ever known echo in our metal hearts in our chests made of stone beneath our wooden skin under sand paper clothes we got a lot in common, we are so different we got a lot in common, we are so different
8.
Its Easy 03:44
Its hard to be grown up when you're young Its hard to know when things end and when they've begun its easy to make the same mistakes again and again its easy to pretend things are like they were back then I got a long list in my head of things I wish I could forget My soul is fine, my hearts okay my mind is often far away wandering the night alone not ready yet to come back home I guess the secrets we keep best are the ones that we keep from ourselves I thought I'd have it figured out by now amazing grace how sweet the sound but getting older didn't make me any wiser somehow that saved a wretch like me I needed someone to pull me out I once was lost but now I'm found of this spiraling of fear and doubt, pull me out was blind but now I see, I see I've got a long list in my head of things I need not to forget this battered sail can catch wind yet hope can move this ship full of regret my soul is fine, my hearts okay my mind is often far away wandering the night alone when its dark outside, there is light at home its hard to stand when you've fallen down its hard to get off of the ground its easy when out of no where someone lift's you from the mud its easy when somebody pulls you up
9.
Drink Alone 06:52
in the corner there's an old young man, he sits in his regular spot/ he's been coming to this bar for the last 2 years, he's been coming whether he wants to or not/ he stumbles on over night after night fro his dark apartment down the street/ and he drinks 'till he'll laugh about anything, and he drinks 'till he can't keep his feet/ he says "my mama always told me I'd grow up to be special, but I guess I grew up to get old/ and life's not at all what I had expected and I'm going it all alone/ where have all my good years went? I drank 'em all away/ now my body's to tired to try anymore 'cause my body feels twice my age/ but this whiskey feels nice, the next one'll feel better/ tomorrow will be the same as today/ but tonight, it'll keep all the demons at bay// To his left there's a man who is wearing a tie and he's never been here before/ he's got his head in his hands and his phone is turned off and his jacket and briefcase on the floor/ he says, "I don't really like the taste of alcohol but please give me something good and strong/ all of my life I've tried to do everything right but somehow its all gone so wrong/ money isn't everything, well, that's what they say, but it sure means a hell of a lot/ we were barely hanging on to our house and our car and now I just lost my job/ and I don't see a way to dig us out of this hole and the weight on my shoulders is crushing my soul/ how has this become my life? and how do I go home and face my wife?/ I think I'll need a lot to drink tonight// oooooooooooooooo// Near the end there's a man holding something in the light/ its a picture of a woman, she's got breathtaking eyes/ the picture's been folded the edges are torn, but it seems she's never seen so much beauty before/ so he folds her up gently and puts her back in its wallet, then he kisses the leather and puts it in his back pocket/ he says, "I just need one more small drink to be brave, all this waiting is more than my broke heart can take/ my baby she left me and I've been wasting away, but I can't say I blame her 'cause I ain't no saint/ but I love her more than anything else in this world, and I gotta go win back my beautiful girl/ how the hell did I loose her now when i had her in my arms?/ and I gotta find the right thing to say somehow 'cause she won't fall for any of my charms/ she said she'd meet me tonight at a quarter past 8/ this is my chance, so just one more drink of else I might be late// ooooooooooooooooo// and they all drink alone, and we all hope they can make it home
10.
The Key 03:13
sometimes the path lights up in the dark we learn where we are/every once in a while we spend our time well/ we arrive at our destination and get confirmation/ that we did what we needed to do and we did it well ooooooooo, ooooooooooo its the key that unlocks every door/ its the answer that shakes you to the core/ knowing what you're fighting for/ could anybody ask for more? there's always voices in your ears voices in your ears but then one rings clear/ and you know what you're supposed to do and you know the truth/ O heaven knows what heaven knows but you know it too/ Heaven knows what heaven knows what oooooooo, oooooooooo its the key that unlocks every door/ its the answer that shakes you to the core/ knowing what you're fighting for/ could anybody ask for more? sometimes you're not supposed to let go you're supposed to grab hold/ some times you're not supposed to let go you're supposed to grab hold
11.
sound from my lips, it echoes back, bounces back in, needles and pins// sounds different, I disagree, with who said that, sounded like me/ O I can't explain I can't explain it all I try my best/ O one million things these things I'm supposed to have but don't possess I will try to find the right way to go/ i'll find my way, o step and step into the right way to from here on/ I'll find my way, o I will try to find the right way to go/ I'll find my way, o I will try to find the right way to go/ I'll find my way, o congratulations, to all of you who always know, what you're supposed to do/ and where to go, who' s gut to trust/ that must be nice, I'm envious/ O I can't explain I can't explain it all I try my best One million things these things I'm supposed to have but don't possess

about

Hello Friends!
I'm so happy to finally be putting the album out!! Most of these songs were written while I was stricken with the most horrible cold/ flu of my life in January 2011. I found myself sick and unable to leave my little Chicago apartment or even my bed for about 2 weeks. About 8 days into that isolation, my mind was racing with so many thoughts- so I just started writing furiously. The poems I wrote during that time ended up being 9 out of the 11 songs on this album. The songs all share a common root, an externalized though process of what it means to be a "grown up". I found myself dwelling on conversations I had been having with my friends about how incredibly strange it is to be in our mid-20s. We all had always thought that we would have ourselves and our paths in life figured out by now... and we've found, to our own great confusion/ panic that we've never been more unsure of ourselves, what we are supposed to be doing, and how to do it. The songs I wrote in January wrestle with this. My album, The Young Adult, tries in my own simple way to explore that and hopefully, see some hope through it all. Give the songs a listen, I really hope you like them and they bring some beauty into your life:)

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released August 21, 2011

All music written and performed by: Abbi Rajasekhar
Recorded with: Josh Estock @ Great Western Record Recorders
Mixed and Mastered by: Jon Visger

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Singer . Songwriter . Composer . Arranger . Lover . Fighter .

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